istherelifeafter50

“With sweat still stinging my eyes I write. I sweat from walking hard. I just took a three mile turn around the neighborhood in an effort to shed those pounds that doggedly attached themselves to me quietly over the last couple of years. The instant I walked in the door I mounted the scales to record the repulsive 239lbs in this missive so now everyone knows what a fat hog I have become. I need to shame myself in to doing something about it because I have become tired and bored with myself. I am ashamed every time I look in a mirror, or walk past a window and cast a glance to see the fat fool that I no longer recognize looking back. Hell, I can balance a glass on the shelf my stomach makes when I sit! Age itself has cast a pall on me too with wrinkles and pains that I fight daily. I am so depressed over the way I am aging that I think I just threw in the towel last year. This year must be about fighting back. I’m tired of feeling down, bitter, tired and old. I’m, only 52 for Christ’s sake; I should not be in this kind of shape.
Just five short (long) years ago I had just come off my infamous Appalachian Trail hike and was only 190 lbs. I need to get to somewhat resemble the man I was then again. I was running marathons, and all though I weighed 220 lbs at the time at least I was fit; now I’m just fat. Granted I have developed an inoperable hiatal hernia that causes what I have to extend even further than need be. If I attempt sit ups I look like some alien life form has invaded my stomach cavity so I have to find a way to trim up without sit ups. My shoulder injury will not allow me to lift weight much over 20 lbs so I am limited in choices. I guess walking and running along with cutting calories will have to do it.
I can only hope that as I improve myself my attitude will improve as will my life style. I seemed to have a lot of tough breaks this past year, especially the last six months, many of them financially so I am ready for the gods to smile favorably for a change. I will do my best to prepare myself and perhaps that will be just enough to attract what I need.”

I wrote this in January at my other blog Bollocks. I have since joined another gym and gotten a personal trainer and a new diet. I have dropped to 225 pounds so far with 200 being the goal for the end of the year. I run in the mornings at 4am before it gets too hot or walk from my office to my wife’s office so we can car pool together the ten miles home. I have cut out, for the most part, all carbs; no potatoes, rice, pasta and very little bread. When I do eat foods outside of my allowed food group then I make sure I have smaller portions. It is working for me so far. Work is improving, the wife got a job and the worm has turned.

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